Hi, it’s Lana here!
(And yes—believe it or not, most of us do see the awful things people say about us online.)
Before I go, I just wanted to share a little message. This was never meant to be my full-time career. If you’ve followed me for a while, you’ll know I’ve said that many times—I have a degree and an actual career outside of this. This space was always something I did on the side for fun, not for money.
That’s also why I stopped posting as much. I was focused on my career—and, to be totally honest, I’ve had a really difficult year personally too. I’ve dealt with the loss of family members, and I’ve had to step up and care for my mum. I explained this a few times, but I understand not everyone would have seen those updates.
No one has ever “paid for me to live.” Some kind people donated for extra food or support at times, and I’ve always been transparent that that’s all it went towards. I’ve always paid my own bills through my job—just like plenty of people who treat this as a side hustle, not their livelihood.
Truthfully, it’s the pressure and constant judgement that have made me realise this space just isn’t healthy for me anymore. I would’ve loved to keep making the odd video here and there—especially continuing to share my weight gain journey—but it’s clear that’s no longer possible without it affecting my mental health.
To those who were kind, respectful, and genuinely lovely—thank you. Your support meant a lot. But this decision isn’t just about the trolls—it’s about growth. This no longer aligns with who I am or where I’m headed. I want to focus fully on my future, my healing, and my career.
So on that note, I’m signing off. Thank you for the memories, the support, and the fun we shared along the way.
Lana x