Holy fuck this guy is inspiring. There's something beautiful and yet abhorrent that he could do something like this to himself. Poetry made flesh. A forbidden experience that only a few souls may ever live.
He really encapsulates the shame and fear to absolutely lose yourself with no hope of redemption that gets to me more than anything. To be nothing more than a worthless, helpless blob, slowly killing yourself but unable to stop - So far gone it's impossible to even try. The only thing left is regret and life-ruining lust. I am split - I would give anything to be like him, but it is also my darkest fear - somehow that makes it even hotter