I study animation and yeah, I only found out I was somewhere on this Asexual spectrum(I already have mild autism) 2 years ago. It has been hard just dealing with this especially in the first year. I began to analyze my past crushes and most have been women, but it did occur to me that I never once thought about sleeping them. I thought I was late bloomer, but it turns out I never bloomed. within that first year of discovering this also developed a crush on a guy, so that threw me for a loop. I was questioning myself if I was gay but I wasn't at least not entirely. I searched all this stuff about it, and it turns out there are different forms of attraction and the main issue with Allosexuals(as we refer to those who DO experience sexual attraction) they tend to experience Sexual, Romantic, Aesthetic and even Emotional attraction at the same time. Which is the main reason why it's so difficult for anyone to comprehend. There is another form of Attraction which is Sensual Attraction which can be Hugs, a simple pat on the head and stuff like that which are not necessarily sexual. Anyway, I tend to experience Romantic, Aesthetic attraction for the people I liked, for women it didn't really matter if they were fat or not. I don't like fat guys, only fat girls. Even before I knew all of this, I always said I would like someone for their personality. So I would be called Biromantic and not bisexual; how odd I thought to myself. You learn something new everyday. Now here's a problem that I have personally; if I don't care about sex, how the fuck am I supposed to explain the reason why I like to draw fat women in everything I do? Yes I like the aesthetic but I can never admit in a professional setting that it turns me on lol
2nd I haven't really dated anyone either because I didn't feel the need to, but I do desire the romance and the idea of that special someone always being there for you. Because this shit is a spectrum there might be a chance that you do feel sexual attraction with some people but maybe it's not enough to act on, or it requires certain conditions, like Demisexuality where someone develops sexual attraction when they form an emotional bond with someone that they like. I honestly haven't a clue if I'm that last one either it's all a confusing mess where one should just accept that it will always be confusing.
Also this is good biographical comic about Asexuality, I totally felt seen.