I know this probably isn't the place to ask. I have no moral qualms against porn so long as it isn't straight up exploitative, but I have come to the conclusion that fetish porn is ruining my life. I'm into stuffing / gaining / women with bellies ... I have been all of my life so it's not just a side kink it's the core of my sexuality. For many reasons which I'm sure I don't need to delve into I have found it next to impossible to indulge in this stuff offline, even just meeting women with a belly (who aren't extremely insceure) has proven impossible so porn has been my only outlet. The closest thing has been a few sexting / LDRs with feedees overseas who I met on feabie, but those always fall apart eventually. It pains me to say it but I actually find kink porn sexier than real life sexual experiences without any kink invovled... plus there's no risk of STD, pregnancy, drama etc. To be honest I'm not even really into women who don't at least have a belly - I've tried having sex with regular thin women and I couldn't even perform. So for a while I stopped even trying to kindle real life romantic/sexual relationships. But I've realized that htis approach is only going to lead to misery and loneliness long term. I've accepted that I'll never get rid of my kinks. I've tried many times and failed. But I think I at least need to give up porn or cut back on it. But I genuinely don't know how. I have tried strategies like every time I feel an urge to crank the hog I do pushups instead or pick up the guitar or something but that only gets you so far. The pleasure / rush I get from any sort of kink stuff or seeing chubby women offline is so much more intense than anything else in my life as pathetic as that sounds which makes it tougher to give up than most people with regular porn use. Should I just accept the way I am and keep trying to meet a woman who ticks these boxes? I know belly fat isn't healthy and I wouldn't want to encourage my partner to be unhealthy so that would leave me feeling guilty. And what if she decides to lose all the weight? Should I stop trying and just indulge in porn? Should I see a sex therapist? I doubt they could give me much insight that I haven't already thought of. I honestly don't know what to do about it? Anyone got any advice?