OP here, after some self-reflection I've returned to conclude this weird ass thread
It was seeing weight gain in cartoons as a child that gave me an overbearing attraction to fat women. In a similar manner, seeing stretching and flattening in cartoons has given me an overbearing attraction to tall slender women.
With that, I've realized the only next step is to push the bounds of my fetishes.
If I can train under the muscle mommy lovers, I'll have them all.
And then... there will be nothing standing in the way of my sexual frustration. Muahahahaha
Fr tho, thanks again for the honest words. It turns out venting to complete strangers on bbwchan really helps