>>82101
You're not wrong. I have been an FA as long as I have had any sexual interests, though started off as wanting chubby/big tits and through the years wanted fatter and fatter, with less interest in tits and more in hips/thighs/calves. And certainly at first, I had a hard time admitting even to myself that I was attracted to the women society told me were unattractive. But gradually I got more self-confident and was honest with both myself and my potential partner.
There really is no point hiding it, because if you want to find a woman you want to be with long-term and she should be fat, it is a mistake to try to sweep what you like under the rug. You need to have that conversation at some point, cause you need to know if you are both on the same page. Again, through experience I learned that there was no point wishing someone would stop hating themselves and come to accept themselves for you. I had a few very hot relationships where my gf hated being fat, and it really is horrible when you have to hide who you are just to please them. That is a recipe for long term disaster, so guys really need to be honest and broach this subject. But be gentle in introducing it - wait a while until it is clear she likes you, and when you have that conversation, I would not start off by telling a 300 lb beauty that you love 600 lb hotties and hope she will become one one day, but ease into the conversation more gently and talk about - in a non-creepy way! - about what you find attractive about her. But if you absolutely won't be in a relationship with a woman who is under 500 lbs, you also should be honest about that at some point, even if the relationship ends because of that. (And if that is the case, it would end at some point or you would be in for a lifetime of misery.)
I feel different than you about LTR - I want a fat and happy wife. But I also love my wife and realized that at some point she would have to lose; it just came sooner and happened more abruptly than I expected (and there are other issues at play here, like lack of trust that her weight loss is incidental and not a goal). And I never got the 500 lb woman I always wanted, though I knew that was going to never happen and it was only a dream. (Though if we suddenly went back to our 20s today and could start all over, I don't think I would have ended up with her because there is so much more to chose from in 400-500 lb women in their 20s and early 30s that just did not exist back in the 90's.)
And you are also right that sex does not happen as much - previously because her lack of sex drive really cut back, and now because I cannot perform as much and I don't find her physically attractive anymore. But man, I love a fat woman and used to showed it to my wife, cause enjoying her fat body is about more than just sex. And that I miss.