Thanks for making this thread op. I'm also an introspective fag who wonders about this kind of thing.
1. first remember
It was a gradual shift from fascination with weight gain and body inflation in cartoons to something more sexual, but it was in me since I was in preschool. I blame my family for normalizing stuffing a pillow up one's shirt, and my grandfather's various fertility goddess figurines. I think it's hereditary. Anyway, I had dreams about body inflation as early as 1st grade. Hell, I remember drawing Sonic inflation art that early, probably because inflation kept coming up in sonic cartoons and official comics. I had a friend at this age who was also fascinated by body inflation. I wonder if he ever got over it. I remember stumbling upon bodyinflation.org and some YouTube groups in elementary or middle school. My sexual awakening didn't really start until early high school. My first wet dream involved pregnancy expansion - not 1st person, BTW. I did get into autogynophelia later in high school - stuffing balloons and padding under leotards and such and looking at myself in a mirror, but that didn't stick. Too much hassle once I started finding good deviantart content. I remember being fascinated by the ssbbw greeting cards at Spencer's Gifts and pregnant tummy costumes at Halloween stores from an early age. Over time, my fetish started focusing more and more on curvy figures and T&A than body inflation. Spherical ladies were out, heavy round ladies were in.
2. Was your mom fat?
3. How do you feel about your mom? (picrelated lol)
My mom was not fat. She was pretty trim my whole life. I don't think I had any sexual feelings about her. I'm on good terms with my parents and don't think they factor much into this.
However...
- I think my dad also has a secret fat fetish based on random comments he's made throughout my life
- I, like others in this thread, was a fat child, and I blame my mom for this. I think being a fat child was a major part in developing this fetish. There is something about not being in control of one's body that leaves a dent in the psyche. There's a reversal, or a payback - feeling body shame and unattractive as a child, and then being attracted to people who feel this way as adults. Maybe it's just that I have low self esteem about my body from leftover self‐fat shame (I'm in okay shape now) and I figure fat girls are more often easy and craving attention.
4. Do you have a specific experience that you think gave you this fetish?
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